I Think I’m Alone Now

I think I’m alone now
How did I reach this point, I don’t know how
Locked in my home, think I’ll remain here
Every time I leave the house I’m wracked with fear

I wish I didn’t have to go to work
Please don’t judge me, I’m not trying to be a jerk
My heart skips a beat every time I go outside
I just want to run back home and hide

I think I’m safe now
Time to have some fun if my mind will allow
It’s easy to turn to my games, cards, and puzzles
But occasionally I get the urge to leave that bubble

So I step out the door and set my feet pattering
Visit some friends and do some chattering
But eventually my mind begins to scream
I need to flee to escape this horrible dream

I think I’m secure now
I don’t need to socialize anyhow
I can always hop on a online game
Playing with my bro will keep me sane

Is this the right way to live my life
Can I ever overcome this strife
One day hopefully I will escape this bind
Maybe I’ll finally break through the barriers in my mind

I wish I was free now

© Jared Denstad

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